Tango

So the gym that I go to has classes that you can take as well. I love this because I can take classes and use the treadmills etc without paying an extra price. I've been taking aerobics. Also, on Wednesday nights they have a Western dance class. Basically, every 3 months they change to a different style of western dance and learn steps, basic and slowly get a whole routine. Currently, we're on tango. I like the tango because it's fun. However, I have two issues. To do it correctly you always have to have bent knees. This kills my knees. We know that my knees suck. They used to crack all the time and in replace of that is pain. however, I've been trying to work my way through the pain. So far, I've been doing well. But tango does bother them. The other thing is tango makes you turn your legs in as opposed to out. This style is against anything that I was taught before. It's right, but my legs automatically turn out. It's always a struggle.
Anyway, so the instructor is male. He is a good dance speaks enough English to help me or he just moves my body when he doesn't know what to say. I kind of have a teacher crush on him..I guess you would say. I'm not attracted to him.. I'm attracted to his talent. But he tells me I'm a good dancer. Also, he nitpicks the little things. I know that sounds bad, but it's not. The smallest of things he nitpicks, the better as a whole that I'm doing. It makes me happy most every time I do so. Ialso need to find the Al Pacino movie with him tangoing..The instructor mentioned it in class.

Beauty

I never hated my body. Well, actually, I probably came close in middle school. But I don't think that I was extremely pretty. I've always been wanting to lose that little chub here or there. I still don't think I'm extremely pretty, but being in Korea has taught me a few things.
At the gym there are saunas and open showers. There are other places as well, but I'm at the gym a lot so I see naked bodies there more often. Women bodies are beautiful. I'm not attracted to women by any means, but they're beautiful. I always thought that fat was something you wanted to have none of. Just get rid of all that fat, I figured. I wanted to listen to people who said you need a little fat to be healthy, but I know I didn't really believe it. But seeing so many different sizes and shapes of naked bodies...fat is ok. In fat we need fat. If we don't have fat than we're not exactly normal and we're probably unhealthy. I think the beauty I see on the women at the gym is like the ancient Greek statues. And they are so much better in person. Women are beautiful and should not be ashamed of a little baby chub or a little fat. Those very tiny Koreans that look like they have no room for fat on them..have fat on them. That fat is beautiful. So, don't ever be upset because you're 10 pounds too much or something. Be healthy and love yourself and that's all that matters.

Sorry, about the last post. I was angry and didn't quite know how to react.
I love Busan a lot. I really do. As always there's a but. In Ulsan, I have a lot of friends that I felt I could count on. I could go to a place and guarantee that I would know people there. In Busan, I haven't built up a system like that yet. And that's uncomfortable sometimes. It's a bit more lonely, I guess. I knew this would be an issue when I moved cities, but it's hitting me hard lately.
I also forgot how much I hate January in Korea. I hate the cold. It's not even that cold compared to New England, but I guess with the lack of snow it doesn't feel as though it should be this cold. Nobody wants to go out or move or really anything. I still don't understand how I'm from New England and Busan's cold is affecting me this much.
I downloaded a Korean course on my computer in the hopes of learning more Korean. I get so annoyed when I only understand about half of what people are saying. It was better understanding nothing because then I didn't care. But half is a big huge tease.
Plus, I've been feeling as though my mind needs to be challenged. I've read 2 books in a week. I haven't done that since college. I need to challenge and expand my mind. Perhaps studying Korean will help me to do this.
I'm not sure if this will really happen or not, but I'm thinking about living in New York with Stephanie Chueng when I return. Of course, there are many factors, but most people who know me have always known that I wanted to move there all throughout college. We shall see.

I'm kinda aggravated. Supposedly, I said something VERY embarrassing and inappropriate to people on Christmas Eve to people that I hardly know. I can't even bring myself to mention it here. Not only is it embarrassing, but the people have been supposedly non-stop talking about it since. I have several issues with this. i was not drunk on Christmas Eve...I remember everything else, but this supposed comment. Even if I was drunk then, the comment would still be inappropriate and there is no way I could not remember saying something something so blunt. The comment wasn't even exactly correct...Idk..the way I found out was through a friend a week and half after the incident. That doesn't make sense either. I think if I found out something like this about a friend I would try to find out immediately if it was true or not, etc. Basically, this situation is really screwed up. It's another reminder that you can't trust people.